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22 June 2009 @ 05:10 pm
The goal for the quarter: 3.75. Ok, I really want to say 4.0 but my two 'hard' classes are actually just that..hard..and they are crammed into summer quarter and I just don't know how it'll go..but I really need to make up for the terrible GPA I got last quarter.
21 April 2009 @ 12:15 am
Ok, current thoughts running through my head about the future that is looming (this is mostly for my own benefit so I can sort it all out)

Scenario 1:
  • Go full time in summer and fall quarters (15 credit hours in one quarter, 20 in the other) and graduate in December.
  • Pros: I would take out less loans/owe less money because I would graduate early.
  • Cons:
    • My apartment lease goes til September 2010.
    • I would have to get another job (in this job market market) to pay for my rent (etc) since I won't be in school and getting loan/scholarship money to pay for things.
    • I have a low GPA so applying to grad school and actually getting in might be tough.
    • I will be extremely busy trying to balance school and studying/taking the GRE while also working.
Scenario 2:
  • Go full time this summer and fall (15 and 15), but stay for winter quarter and take education/student affairs classes.
  • Pros:
    • Could further raise my GPA
    • Taking education/student affairs classes could show potential universities that I really am interested in the program/have experience.
    • Wouldn't have to worry about getting a job outside of school (at least for another 2.5 months while in school)
    • Would give me more time to get experience and references.
  • Cons:
    • Taking out that extra money isn't the best idea. I already have student loans up to my ears and adding to it sucks.
    • Would still be forced to sublease or pay out of pocket for my apartment if I got into a summer graduate program, or still required to get a job for the remaining months til Fall semester would start (assuming I get into a program)

This seems so simple, right? I have tons of pro's for scenario 2 and tons of con's for scenario 1..so really, I should pick scenario 2. I think a lot is going to depend on my financial situation next year as well.


How do I go about choosing what school I want to go to/apply to?

It sucks because I know I will not get into OSU's program, unfortunately.
Reasons: OSU is a giant research institution and has specifically pointed out that they prefer non OSU undergrads for their graduate programs. They want to take students from other schools (who are the cream of the crop) and bring them in, and they want us to go out and do the same at other places. My GPA sucks..plain and simple. I am paying for mistakes I made freshman year (first quarter freshman year, to be specific). Also, OSU's education program is one of the top ranked grad programs in the country..so even with a better GPA it would be iffy.

The other day I was driving in my car and I realized that I cannot imagine ever leaving OSU. I realize I will eventually grow out of this whole college scene..but right at this moment I can't imagine moving away. I feel like my entire life..I have gotten comfortable somewhere and then gotten up and left right as I settled. Now, this has been my decision and I don't regret it at all. Usually, I would say I love doing it. I love going new places and seeing new things..I probably was a navy brat in another life. BUT, I LOVE Ohio State. I cannot even write out how deep my love runs for this university. Everything about it..from the campus to the classes, to the student life and just general opportunities I have gotten here. For me, it fits. I was talking to my advisor last quarter and she asked me if I liked OSU and I got a little teary explaining how much I admire this place. I know that sounds completely ridiculous, but I have put a lot into OSU and I have gotten even more out of it.

So at the moment, I am looking at different schools such as UWF back home, University of Toledo, etc. There are plenty of schools with Student Affairs programs..but none of them are OSU. And sure, I would absolutely go to any school I get accepted to with open arms..but I dread the moment I move away from Columbus.  Going back to school's i'm looking at..UWF. There would be definite pro's to moving back home..first would be that my parents will be living back there again so IF I wanted to live at home, I could for free. I also have ties back home too, of course..and its convenient and familiar overall. But..it is such a giant change from the environment here. It is literally completely different in every facet..from the university to the city..to the weather..the people..the attitudes. Can I handle moving back to that? I know I can..but thinking about it now kind of shocks me. I have gotten so accustomed to life here. I know this all sounds so ridiculous..yes I will do what I have to do and I am emotionally and mentally strong enough to handle all of this..but this is more of me spitting out the incoherent and sometimes completely irrational thoughts in my head.

I know this will all work itself out..and maybe I should concentrate on the whole getting into graduate school thing before I even think of this..but my brain unfortunately doesn't work that way. I have the constant thoughts of 'what if's' in my head..Its like a giant tree and each branch sprouts another branch and another. There are endless thoughts and possibilities.

30 March 2009 @ 10:36 pm
And spring quarter has started.

I am currently scheduled for 20 credit hours..but i'm going to drop one of the classes, I just don't know which one yet.

Comm 642 - Mass Communication and Society
Comm 320 - Interpersonal Communication
ASL 103 - American Sign Language 3
Theatre 597 - Censorship and performance

I'm pretty sure I will drop one of the first two comm classes. I am going to 320 in the morning and while it should be easier than 642, you never know. I had 642 today and it didn't seem very scary, except for the fact that I only understood about every 5th word my very Chinese teacher said. Even worse, our TA is Indian with a very thick accent as well.

Looking back at some older posts, I said I hoped for at least a 3.2 last quarter and I actually ended up with 3.36. Not much higher, but considering how AWFUL last quarter was, I will absolutely take it. I got two A-'s and one B-. And really, it was the quarter from hell. I thought last years winter quarter was the worst i've ever had, but this one eclipsed it.

I'll go ahead and say I am hoping for at least a 3.36 next quarter now. I don't wanna say anything too high because this is going to be an incredibly busy quarter..between the sorority, working, and class..plus any other outside activities with friends. Its spring quarter, I want to have a good time.

As for grad school, I really need to figure out when I want to graduate first. I can either push graduation off till Winter '10..or graduate as expected at the end of December. My only problem with graduating early is that if I apply to grad school/When I apply, I won't be able to start till Fall/Autumn of '10 anyway..and my lease will go till the end of august at my apartment..It is all so up in the air.
30 March 2009 @ 03:27 pm
I think I need to rename this or get a new journal and just start completely fresh.
15 February 2009 @ 12:05 pm
..first time I've ever woken up drunk.
06 February 2009 @ 09:02 pm
Homemade Red Velvet Cupcakes with homemade cream cheese frosting :)

14 January 2009 @ 11:36 am
Thoughts while laying in bed this morning:

'How much would I miss if I didn't go to class?'
'How bad would it be to skip..?'
'Godddd I don't want to get up'
'I am so comfortable and warm'
'I really need to go to sleep earlier'

Thoughts after I get up, get ready, and open my door to go to class/am walking to class'

'holy crap, its a blizzard outside'
'If there was ever a day to not go to class, this would be it'
'I better not walk all the way to class and then find out its canceled'
'This is actually kind of hilarious (all of this snow)'
07 January 2009 @ 03:42 pm
Classes this quarter:

Communication 501 - Children and the Media
Communication 613 - Media Entertainment
ASL 102 - Sign Language 2

So far, I am pretty nervous about ASL 2 and Comm 501. ASL 2 is with a deaf teacher and the learning curve from ASL 1 seems steep. Comm. 501 has two tests and two homeworks and..that's it. Not much breathing room.

Here is to starting the year off well and getting at least a 3.2 for the quarter.
13 December 2008 @ 01:56 am
Grad school research has given me a headache.

Personal Statements..essays? Letters of rec? Can I even write a proper personal statement or admissions essay worth reading? As far as letters of rec go, it is such a pain because at OSU, you rarely have a teacher more than once or twice. My goal for next quarter is to go out of my way to make some connections.

Whats even more scary: The fact that I am doubting my essay/personal statement writing ability and yet I somehow think i'll survive graduate school..hmm.

I haven't even tackled the thought of the GRE yet and frankly, I am afraid to.
10 December 2008 @ 09:29 pm
Working in a photo lab with photo students makes me feel really inferior. Its not even their work that makes me feel that way, its their attitude.

I'm afraid to show them any of my work. While I think some of their stuff is good, most of it is so plain. I don't see how it is so earth shatteringly amazing. One of the girls saw one or two of my things and just called them cliche.